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ibebe_sh0rtiiii

:] i loverrrrs` you.
mmmwwaahhh<33
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i told myself that i would make some changes
but the more i change; there`s one thing that remains the same.
i can`t seem to shake you
you seem to really have a holdonme.
&everytime that we break up; we turn around&makeup
this can`t go on now; i gotta move on now.
it`s not the fact that i don`t love you no more;
but i gotta break this bad habit;
can`t take his bad habit no more ..

ii just really l-o-v-e this song. =) it`s soo sweeet&cuteee. awhh. it kinna describes how i`m feelin` nowadays. mmh .. ii love it.


been thinkin` deep these past weeks .. hella` stressin` me out. sometimes, ii really wish there`s someone that thinks that samething as me & will understand everything ii`m going through, but no one will ever know how ii really feel besides me myself & ii. ii don`t wanna stress, but what can ii do?! ii can`t make things go away & sometimes, it just seems like ii`m having more problems each & everyday. ii don`t want that & ii hate it. ii really do. ii just wanna be happy & have a true smile on my face every single day. & not to worry about the things that ii don`t want to. loving someone is really hard .. you have to take things that you don`t deserve & always gotta think about how would your other part feel if you do this or that? but would they feel the same way as you do? sigh .. ii don`t wanna make you promise me anything, `cause if ii know that you break it, it`d hurt me even more. & i`d rather have you not promise me then` promise me & break the promise & hurt me. ii don`t wanna loose the trust that ii have for you now, `cause ii know you should trust them if you love them` . but it seems so hard now .. how can you still trust that person when` you know` that they broke the promise//promises? it`s just hard .. promises are promises, they`re not meant to be broken ever ..

got bored ..

             the lasts`
-person you hugged: kuya cj :D
-person you called: adrian <3
-person who called you: shannah<3
-thing you touched: my hair :]
-book you read: keke. :] don` member.
-magazine you bought: uhhm. yeahh.
-place you went to: school. :[
-person who said ‘I love you’: adrian<33
-person who you chatted with: i`m away
-perfume you sprayed: john`s curve. mmh :]
-thing you ate: progresso soup. mmmh; i`m sick. :[
-drink you drank: water. :]
-flower you picked: that daisy lookin` one one the side of school. :]
-movie you rented: hmmm ..
-letter u typed: .
-word you said: hmmm ..
-person on your mind: okke;actually he`s always the first, but; adrian.
-place where u slept:  my bed. :]
-animal you touched: my stuffed animal tony got me; *oatmeal. :]
-time you cried: last night` :[

i don`t really appreciate people who TRY to get up in my business and TRY to interfere with my life when they don`t even know shit. so back the fuckkkkk off. =) i`m tired of people thinking they know me. thinking they can control what i do and what i can`t do, treating me like shit, judging me without even getting to know me, and saying shit behind my back. stop being damn hypocrites, backstabbers and two-faced bitches, and top hating cause doing all of this is getting you people NO WHERE. if you think this sort of thing is a "game" and if you think this amuses you, wow you needa GROW UP and stop acting like a little 4 year old. STOP WITH ALL THIS DRAMA CAUSE IT`S GETTING TIRING AND OLD.

as i said before .. " i wanna thank those who hated; because ya`ll keep me motivated. =) "

wish i could rewind the time, back to when i was happy, back to when i didn`t know what drama was. i wish i could bring back everything that once mattered to me from the past. i wish i had another chance.

edit`d; 120404
on a better note; went to saturday d-hall which was mad funn =), but too hella early. =) must admit. didn`t have to do shit b`cos miiss` gee let me roam the halls&unlock all the rooms in the school. keke. =) while i wait`d for kevin to come pick me up .. some random guys in a car rolle`d along and asked me which room SAT`S was testing..i told them i don`t know. then said, " you mean detention? " they were liiike, "no. why?, were you in detention? " i was like "yeahhhh". then they came out of their car and went inside zachry..walk`d off saying " naughty girrrl` " pshhh` i ain`t no naughty girl just b`cos i got 0NE DAY of saturday detention. earlier; i was in the nurse`s office. keke =) peek`d at some people`s files. keke =) found out some goood news. keke =) it was sooo nice to know. hush hush. anyways;on rotation .. look at us now techno mix. i just lovee this song. keke =) i`m addicted to tech now .. can someone, anyone explain this to me. i`m lovin` it. ooohwee. one of my illest homiiies` called me up when i got home. =) meestar adrian villegas. mannn; hella missin` this guy right here. he just called to say wdup&happy late thanksgiving. just checking up on me. Y0U KN0W H0W WE D0. keke =) awww. so sweeet. mannng; i just friggin` miss you!! hopefully see you when the rudder bball game rolls along. =) can`t wait. he had invited me to some party next friday .. and said his homeboy wanted to meet me. grrrrrrr. iimma getchu bacck adrian. >=0. but honestly .. i`m not ready to meet anyone..well for right now atleast. we always keep it tight&fresshh. ain`t that right. shortee&shortiiii f0sh0. =) stay up manng; i`m always here f0 you. =). same goes for CJ .. manng; iimma thank you for helping me through this br0. i couldn`t of done it without you. thankssss. =) madL0VE <3
                            
                                         kuya CJ
                            
                                           sh0rtee

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